and if I must think of you
         I do so unwillingly, with barbs in my teeth
                  possessive of another ghost,
              there is no purchase for you here, demon
          what you wrongfully threw into the river
              dragged itself back to me
                     and let me soak up the wounds while singing hymns
                praise the goddess that she no longer battered

         so if I must think of you,
               I will do so unwillingly
           and with stakes in my hands.